I put this collage together a few days ago and it really evoked a whole gamut of emotions that I wasn’t expecting to feel. It’s interesting to experience these rushes of emotion and what brings them about.
A year ago, just two weeks after my first chemo treatment, my hair began falling out.
I do really miss my long, easy hair. It was soft and mostly simple. I am learning to love (and properly take care of) my new hair, but it’s definitely a process. While I’m absolutely grateful to be where I am today, I do still grieve for what I lost (not just my hair…). It’s odd to realize that I almost don’t even recognize that long haired girl in the photo.
Did you know that I lost ALL of the hair on my entire body? I’ve written a little about the hair on my head and my eyelashes and eyebrows. But, I haven’t talked much about the rest of my body hair. Losing my arm, armpit, and leg hair wasn’t really that big of a deal. But losing other hair, like nose hair and pubic hair caused quite a bit of discomfort. These are some of the things that all my planning and research never revealed to me. The hair on our bodies actually serves a purpose and it can be quite uncomfortable when it’s missing.