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Deployment Blues

Easter 2012

I had lofty goals for this deployment. Things I wanted to do with this blog (ie – reviving it!) and available opportunities that I wanted to get involved in, but to say that my life has taken a different route would be an understatement. I’ve hardly posted anything here since Michael left and it doesn’t really seem like that’s going to change anytime soon.

For a variety of reasons, this deployment has been the most difficult of the ones we’ve endured. Please understand that I’m not really complaining – this is the life we’ve chosen and I’m well aware of and happy with that. God has this in His control and for that security, I’m incredibly grateful.

I wish I had adequate words to convey to you what’s going on in my head, how I’m feeling and what’s causing it, but I just don’t. In part, because I’m not completely clear on the whole ordeal, but I’m otherwise simply unable to convey my thoughts (or collect them, if I’m honest).

I love my children dearly and am incredibly blessed to not only be able to stay home with them, but also educate them at home and I really don’t want this to be taken then wrong way, but it’s HARD work to be the sole person with your kids (and them with you) 98-ish% percent of the time. Yes, I have baby sitters and friends who help out (and it is such a wonderful blessing!), but there’s truly nothing like the Godly example of a dad who loves to be with his children and who also loves to be a blessing to his wife and help her out daily.

Don’t mistake this comment, I am not, in any way, saying that I miss my husband based solely upon how much help he is when he is home. That is not even remotely true, because there are a million other reasons, but I do, in fact, miss the help.

Dear readers, would you please keep me in your prayers? It would be immensely appreciated.

Also, please pardon the dust that might continue to settle on this blog as I continue in this deployment journey. I am still around on Facebook, Twitter and now on Instagram (I’m LauraVenning), sharing small snippets of life along the way – feel free to follow me on one of those platforms!

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6 comments to Deployment blues

  • Laura, You are allowed to feel this way! :) Just make sure you are doing everything you can to shake it off. Make sure you are reaching out to friends, because I’m sure you do NOT feel like it! I don’t share the deployment situation, but I can relate to what you are feeling. So don’t feel too guilty, you aren’t alone! Prayer said and will continue. ~Lori

  • Just prayed for you, Laura!

  • Thank you for being honest! I think some moms can relate to this on a a day by day, but have no idea how it feels to do it for 6+ months…It is like a husband that has a long day of work, but doesn’t get to come home and sleep in his bed, and won’t be home tomorrow, or the next day, or the next. I am glad to hear you have friends that help out, but you are right, it is not the same. Prayers coming your way!

  • Brittni

    Praying for you! Thanks for being transparent with your struggles. That itself is for me always a challenge! May the Lord bless you and the kiddos (and military families everywhere) for the sacrifice you are making for the sake of the rest of us.

  • Amy @ Raising Arrows

    I remember deployments…they are tough and it is ok. Praying for you!

  • Hi Laura,

    God Bless you, and your family. I’m sure that the Lord is guiding you every second and will be there to help you with your problems.
    There will always be a rainbow after a storm, just keep your faith strong.

    May you always be strong for your kids and that may the good Lord protect your husband.

    I’ll pray for you.

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