I had lofty goals for this deployment. Things I wanted to do with this blog (ie – reviving it!) and available opportunities that I wanted to get involved in, but to say that my life has taken a different route would be an understatement. I’ve hardly posted anything here since Michael left and it doesn’t really seem like that’s going to change anytime soon.
For a variety of reasons, this deployment has been the most difficult of the ones we’ve endured. Please understand that I’m not really complaining – this is the life we’ve chosen and I’m well aware of and happy with that. God has this in His control and for that security, I’m incredibly grateful.
I wish I had adequate words to convey to you what’s going on in my head, how I’m feeling and what’s causing it, but I just don’t. In part, because I’m not completely clear on the whole ordeal, but I’m otherwise simply unable to convey my thoughts (or collect them, if I’m honest).
I love my children dearly and am incredibly blessed to not only be able to stay home with them, but also educate them at home and I really don’t want this to be taken then wrong way, but it’s HARD work to be the sole person with your kids (and them with you) 98-ish% percent of the time. Yes, I have baby sitters and friends who help out (and it is such a wonderful blessing!), but there’s truly nothing like the Godly example of a dad who loves to be with his children and who also loves to be a blessing to his wife and help her out daily.
Don’t mistake this comment, I am not, in any way, saying that I miss my husband based solely upon how much help he is when he is home. That is not even remotely true, because there are a million other reasons, but I do, in fact, miss the help.
Dear readers, would you please keep me in your prayers? It would be immensely appreciated.
Also, please pardon the dust that might continue to settle on this blog as I continue in this deployment journey. I am still around on Facebook, Twitter and now on Instagram (I’m LauraVenning), sharing small snippets of life along the way – feel free to follow me on one of those platforms!